frens n school n HIM

its holiday!!! means BORING.. ==' well last thursday was awesome ! haha.. aliah n mimi n ckin were awesome too! but aliah said she 's gonna convert her study to uitm.. hmmm.. i wish she doesnt have to go bcoz she knows how lucky she was in form 6! huhu.. now im talking about him. yeah, HIM! REMEMBER?the one who dumped me bcoz of his mum? well now im gonna blame him.. he is totally a JERK! his fren told me that all  this while he has been fooling me around n it was a great game! GOD! i shud be expected this ! n the weird thing is, i dont feel sad at all.. HAHA! this is because im tired of crying n God knows that i shudnt waste my tears for him. its worthless... he dedicated me a song. yes, the song describes me, n what i feel towards him. since he dumped me for the 1st time. this is the second time he did this to me. well, fine then. i am alright. i am just fine here. plus, he is not the only player here. me too. i repeat , I AM A PLAYER TOO. so what? he thinks he is good? hmmm not so fast my dear.. but i will have my sorry for him bcoz he's gonna catch a cold from the ice inside his soul... he is going to be alone... n he will never ever feel the power of the true love.. cuz he doesnt know what love is. . . its better dont come for me at all ! coz that time , i'll treat u just like a rubbish on the street.. n u know what does it means...

totally wrong

huhhh... everything is happening without i expected today... there are things went wrong n some thing happened today. but i feel a bit sad bcoz i think i ve lost one of my fren today.. this is all happened bcoz of a new feelow in our class today. she was her bestfren. n suprisingly she ignored me. what a bad day.. i thought she was my fren but she was not. she is just an ordinary fren that is easy come easy go.. compared to the other fren, even though she was kinda like to tease me but she didnt ignored me like my fren was.. i feel sad, horrible, mad, frustrated n annoying in a same time.. n that new fellow was very2 bad influence for me.. oh my GOD she is sucks as hell!! she is rude to teacher, n many people told me that its better not to befriend with her cuz she is a virus.. a very bad virus. n she seems not satisfied with me... well, just wait n see mila who is better.. i can prove to scha , ( my fren who asked me not to messed up with her) how is it when 'buku bertemu ruas'.. she doesnt really know who i am... haha.. actly i dont wanna create problems at this new school but if i have to, i will.. well, everything was different today.. totally different.. okay!! nest post coming up soon! (maybe tonight? maybe not) hahahahhaha ADIOSS:P

deactivate account...

he deactivated his account... with a message telling that ' bye i kne deactivate account' n GONE .. just like that...   i was stunted.. speechless...how could him kan? went off just like that.. n all the promises.. also gone or something? he hurt me for so many times.. but this time its different. i feel like losing him forever. okay. fine. i will get over this. FINE ! i can do it. i hope he will be happy with his life la kan. . . n hopefully he explains this to me one day.. hopefully. oh my god this is so HARD....

unforgetable LOVE

well.. i am willing to back off. this is for our own sake. we will be far away each other afta this.. n maybe she's the best for u.. thanks for all the love ,laughs , stories, smiles, sorrow n everything that we shared together... u make me happy... seriously.. whenever u come on9.. i feel like there is butterfly flying happily in my stomach n i cant avoid it... it makes me feel like living in a fairytale where my prince will always come for me, spreading the love into me... says the love words and its absorbed absorbed deep in my heart.. it is lovely.. it is happy.. n of course even we re nor meant to be together, no one can replace u.. u are always be my 'jacob black' that i adore, that i love, that i dream in every single night of my tight sleeps... its u.. it is always be u.. no matter how time heal everything,it will never heal my pain, my love, my happiness, my memories with u.. i wish we will meet someday, some place , my dear prince.. i'll be the juliet n u will be the romeo.. just like u wished, just like u said... no matter what... my dearest jacob black...n i, alwys be ur infinity... always.... i will remeber what u always say... to the infinity n beyond.. its our memory syg..

new classmate yg ANNOYING GILA ...ERGHHH!!

well, as usual... today went to school..and we have to "cheer up' our class as proposed by our class teacher... yeah, okay fine luckily la ketua keceriaan is my bestfren la.someone yg aku bole cooperate when buat kerja.(coz aku bendahari an) haha...okay, kinda tired tampal tu tampal ni gunting tu gunting ni..berpeluh2 aku dibuatnya! haha..da lama doe xbuat.. :p.. so far okay jugak, but there are two IDIOTS in my class yg came from majority students skola yg skola kat bukit guntong...we call is group BUNGA secretly. HAHA! seriously i hate them... ! berlagak nak mampos..nasib bek gang dorg tuh kelas perniagaan , nope kelas ekonomi cm ktorg..well, eko ni budak pandai skit, haha! kerek lagi , =='..ah forget about it! and today, we started to do some works la kan..bcoz our teacher wanna see the different in our class starting from this week. haha. so, a bit transformatuon has been done today.. tapi ade la IDIOTS tu tak faham bahasa kan...memang sakit hati gila sebab mase discussion last thursday punya la semangat cm SIAL. nak buat tu la, buat ni la, beli tu la beli ni la... ==' padahal xde jawatan ape2 pun...ktorg yg ade jawatan ni buat donnow je ngan dia. haha..seriously starting from today aku memg menyampah gila babi ngan dia.. hehe.. geram dow. lagi satu, ktorg rapat la (me n nani) dgn two boys dlm kelas tu..da dua org je boys dlm kelas ktorg kan... hehe... so nak buat camane dah memg la ktorg yg bertanggungjawab pasal keceriaan tu, so rapat la dgn ketua.. hehe.. TWO IDIOTS tu ntah ape tak puas hati ngn ktorg... jeles kot! eh sorry aku tak lapar la budak laki skola BUNGA k? hahahaha... so td aku suruh la sape2 yg xde kerja betugas tolong sapu2 jew..dia bole buat derk je ??? bengang aku! then aku mls la nak cari gado..then ktorg buat keje xbincang pun dgn dia .. hahaha...kita2je..:P padan muka! dah tu asik2 kuar  kelas..mane xkuarnye dah gang ade dekat kelas sebelah kan...so nak xnak kene la get out ..da la PEMALAS !! kalo cun xpe jugak ni muka cm BERUK je seko2 aku tgok..hehe... sian korang... pastu tadi pandang punya xpuas hati dekat aku n nani..what the HECK?? bajet aku goyang ah? eh sory sket eayyy...eee TAKUT2...:p..

ha ni pasal crush aku...ak ni kan satu je aku xsuka sal aku, kalau suka org tu, mesti xreti nak cover dah... ntah2 aku pandang dia smpai dia bole tahu kot.. anyways im so damn happy la ini hari..cuz byk kali la jugak dtg 'melawat' kelas aku en.. hehe..aku tahu , aku nmpak tpi just buat donnow jer... buat2 sibuk ngn keje... ==' mengada tol.. time dia xde ko sibuk la cari gatal gila.... time dia dtg aku bole jer wat tak tau... cehh... hakktuiiii..geli aku ngn diri aku !! haha.. so far, thats it for today... oh esok harap2 bole kenakan BUDAK BUNGA tu lagi !! hehe.. n see him again.. :P bye22 :D :D MOOD : HAPPY NAK MAMPOSSS hahasaaa

its a life..

heyy...what if i tell u that i hate boys?? unbelievable kan? but thats what i wanna do now..i wish i could hate boys .. ==' today ive blocked him.. padan muka dia! dah ade awek la konon...menggelabah... euww please la nape aku bole ade crush kat org bodo mcm tu?? i shudnt do that la... oh my...well, anyway, esok skola.. haha!! (gila pdahal xde pape nak tulis pon)

a crush or love or just a temporary replacement?

heyya blog! long time no see kan kan.. well its been a longgggg time since ive written a story.. haha now only got mood to do so... its about love of course... never missed love in my life.. and boys also. haha. its about someone that i love with all my heart. it was actly. he is someone, dont want to mention here cuz someone will vommit soon. anyways, he gone to somewhere which is far far far far awayyy from malaysia.. its somewhere in middle east. and of course, i ws half-dying to let him go.. its too painful. too painful until i got no tears to cry for.. never feel like this before. see im okay outside, but my heart, only GOD knows it.  but within the sadness, there is someone, who's quite close to me. actly, very close.. we re in the same case. but a bit different, the dif is, my ex still love s me but his ex doesnt love him cuz i know his ex very well... i started to fall for him. instantly! but i thought it was just a crush... well for me  when it is a crush, i dont care if he date someone else but this time i do really care! i was jealous when i found out he is seeing someone else now... i thought i could replace my ex... but he seemed doesnt like me. like i do. yah, it hurts but not really hurts cuz he still cares bout me. but im worried, what if , after this, he wont bothered me anymore??? what if, i cant tease him anymore ?? iam worried cuz i feel  so close to him! oh... i dont wanna lose him. really. n to him, if he reads this, please understand that i need u.. about my ex whom is somewhere in the middle east..... god knows how much i love u, but i have to accept the truth that we re not meant to be together, but yah i still believe what u always told me several times, we will meet someday kan? hopefully... n i hope when i meet him someday, he was made for me eversince..